Ayy Yo World!! *Special*

Become Another Casualty of Society...

Ayy yo good people...Captain Meech Boogie here...reporting from the plantation...man have I really been slacking in the post department...but the reason being...I've been trapped inside my own mind...trying to figure myself out...wonder why I think the way I do...why I rationalize a certain way...why my heart is big but yet small at the same time............................why am I so different from everyone else??...but yet at the same time I don't care whether I fit in or not...all I can do is be myself yo...nobody else...I won't try to be somebody else...I been playing a role for so long...my teenage years were spent trying to fit in with others...so they can accept me...I wanted so bad to be part of the in crowd...buying all the lastest urban clothes...shoes...music...whatever...if it was in...I wanted it...as long as I got the recognition I was looking for...it didn't matter...I could honestly say I was a follower...and alot of my friends were too...a big ass group of followers...the blind leading the blind down the steep cliff of the mountain......................that was until I lost my bro Darius...he was pretty much into the same shit...but he was crazy with his...being into the whole slanging epidimic...he had all the lastest things...all the shit you could ever want...and he wanted you to see it...he was a stunter...but he worked for all he had...a good job he was blessed with...along with the other shit...me??...drugs wasn't me...I couldn't get into it like that...he once told me "he wishes he had the will power like I did"...at the time I didn't know what he was talking about...but now...almost 3 years after his death...I truely understand...he was a follower as well...but he saw something in me...he saw that I wasn't destined to be a follower as well...he saw that I have my own mind...my own will...my own heart...my own dreams..................................................for so many years I have hidden so many things from the light...my love for rock music...let alone all music...my fascination with piercings...my constant viewing of anime...my curious nature concerning art...literature...animals...and dying...I love watching the all the Discovery channels...National Geographic...Science channel...Animal Planet...all that educational goodness...I mean in high school...I was sort of breaking out of that mold...where I wanted to be something I really wasn't...I was sort of becoming my own individual...but it was when Darius died when I truely decided the line in the sand has to be drawn...so from 2006 on down...it has been constant soul searching and brain scanning...redefining myself as what I was supposed to be..................................now...man...I am such an fucking individual!!!...no longer am I trying to fit in with the in crowd...fuck the in crowd...just a bunch of posers and lost souls...believe me I know...you shouldn't have to try to be cool or whatever...coolness comes from within yo...just like a word people tend to overuse now...swagg...swagg isn't something you have to tell everyone about...it's something that is noticed...it's evident...but the shit is so blown now..."her booty got swagg"...lmao!!...how the fuck can an ass have swagg...I can now laugh in the face of society and all the fools who try to follow it...cuz I was once a fool too...I can now sit back and look at all the dumb shit people are coming up with...and shake my head...FaceBook is a good place for that...it is so many clowns on there...it really doesn't make any sense...nobody is he or she...everyone wants to play a role...everybody on some money shit...or gang shit...or thuggin shit...that's not everyone yo...that's not cool...the world needs diversity...it needs individuals...not a lump mass........................................alot of shit that I thought was cool back then...I see how untrue that is...alot of people who I thought were cool because of their status...ha!!...right...I even use to look down upon whites and every other race...just because everybody else was doing it...I mean how uncool is that shit??...but that's another post..........I now look at the world with a whole another perspective...in a whole new light...it's been that way for awhile...and I would change not a thing...I have mature in alot of ways...no longer do I have tunnel vision...no longer do I see that a lil ray of sunshine peering through the window...I am sitting on the stars...letting the bright orange mix in with the brown.........I don't have to impress anyone...I don't have to please anyone...I won't kiss anyone's ass...I am Meech Boogie...I am myself...if you don't like...get the fuck out the way then...............but it has come to the point where I have become so different...where I can't really indentify with my friends...some of them close friends...and they can't indentify with me...some can't even handle it...well that's just a part of life...people out grow each other everyday...it use to bother me...but if they were really your friends...they would accept and adapt...diversity in a group is good...I am willing to put up with them...why can't they do the same??...............it is what it is though...I am who I am...like Sum 41 said "I don't wanna waste my time...become another casualty of society"...I agree with that 100%.....................it honestly feels like I am alive...I've been a walking corpse for so long...not anymore................you never see me talking bout how much money I got...the things I possess...how many people I know...the street I live on...none of that really matters in the end...you can know all the people in the world...but...do you know yourself??...you can have the things in world...but...do you have your individuality??...................................good people...this wasn't really what I was going to speak upon but it just came straight from the brain into the fingers...my mind is as vast as the solar system...my thoughts are as deep as the ocean itself...I could really go on for hours...but break is over...I might come back later with some good ol music and sneakers...so...CATCH ME FLOATING AROUND THE GALAXY!!